Welcome to my very first blog. I am excited to share my thoughts with all of you and hopefully gain some insight on ideas and topics as well. First and foremost, I would like to introduce myself. I am a 22 year old Florida girl. I have lived in Florida my entire life and before you ask; the answer is no, I have never seen snow nor have a I flown in an airplane but I would imagine that it will be a fun experience one day. I am always on the go between my job at a retail food store and going to college (by the way, I graduate in just a few short weeks with my Bachelors’ degree. WOOT WOOT!) When I do get some sort of down time I like to paint, draw, play skyrim, work with my guinea pig; Jack Skellington (Jax for short), in addition to loads of shenanigans with my best girl friend ever! I consider myself to be open-minded and curious about the world and the interesting people inhabiting it. Thank you for checking out my page and taking the time to read “A little bit about Me”.
I am currently trying to learn a new lesson, one that is exceptionally difficult for me because I am a bit of a strong-willed woman. Don’t get me wrong, I love taking things in and going with the flow, but there are some things that I am fairly immovable on; one thing in particular is respect. After working in the same job for 4 years, I have established my position and gained respect from those I have worked beside and gained loyalty and trust from. However, I have this one manager who has only been there for maybe 2 or 3 years and I clash explosively with. This manager is very big on respect as well and demands it from everyone; an attitude which I have been adapting myself and have so been acting on at work. Recently we had a rather heated argument about him not showing me respect of any kind. The way I saw the situation was that we were equals even though I am a lead manager and he is an assistant manager. Evidently I was mistaken and he informed me that I needed to earn his respect first. For almost a week now I have gone over the confrontation in my mind and tried to see the situation from all angles. Today I have arrived at a conclusion that is not easy for me to accept but it is a challenge I am willing to face and overcome; In order to be treated with the respect I desire, I must first swallow my pride and the notion that “I’m right and you’re wrong”. I must be patient and courteous, selfless and a better team player, and above all; respectful regardless of the situation. I have decided that I do not want to have confrontation with my teammates because then there will be a breakdown in our structure at work. I have made a promise to myself that I will work hard to earn his respect and he has agreed to speak softer to me in return. I feel great relief that this issue has a solution and I feel that every day brings me closer to my personal goals.
Food for thought.
This year brings about some exciting things for me; one thing in particular I am STOKED about!! Something that me and my husband-to-be have been working on is couples pre-marital counseling to identify emotional past hurts and triggers that could spark issues later on down the road. I can honestly say I didn’t think I would have any problems based on my past. I was convinced that I had moved on from past emotional pains from toxic relationships but what I found out was that I had managed to do was just suppress all of that negativity. After much prayer, lots of support, and many tears, I experienced a freedom I haven’t felt before. Since that experience I have been thinking a lot about Love and Marriage not just in my own life but in the lives of those around me as well. I feel so light and bubbly whenever I think about what my coming marriage will bring and how the wedding itself will go. The more I think about it, the more I find myself taking a closer look at all the different languages of love and how it is expressed by different people. I hear couples argue and make up, I see small gestures that show appreciation, and I experience simple moments in my own relationship that remind me to treasure the little things in life. Love is not a concrete language, it is a complex and beautiful dance set to a beat that only the two dancers can understand. Staying in step with your partner is not always easy but with enough effort and practice, their dance can be timeless and unique.
Working in retail has its ups and downs as most of us may know. Some days tend to have more downs than ups though. So what do you do to get through days like that? For me I have to really take a step back, a deep breath or two, and remember that if I want to take care of myself I have to not let other people’s negativity weigh me down. Easier said than done right? Being in a retail position for the last four years has taught me so many things about patience, self discipline, time management, organization, and that you can’t please everyone no matter how hard you may try. One little mantra I have adapted for myself is; “Sometimes I am on top of the mountain, Sometimes the mountain is on top of me, but that is when I find out how strong I truly am”. So always remember that you are better than the negativity others may try to dump on you. I still struggle sometimes with this, as we all do especially when someone is just DETERMINED to bring you down because they themselves are miserable and as the old saying goes; “misery loves company”. I have to remind myself that they have their own battles they are going through so I smile and wish them the best. Sometimes people surprise me with a smile in return, sometimes they get more irate or mean with me but I can’t let that weigh on my heart. Life is just too short to be miserable about other people and let them ruin your good mood.
Food for thought…
More introductory stuff!
So the reason that I decided to make this blog and title it Living Out Loud; a quest about what really matters, is because I have noticed as I am sure you have that the world can weigh us all down with copious amounts of garbage and we as human beings allow ourselves to be filled with that garbage like landfills. I want this blog to be about all the positive ways that people help and encourage their fellow human beings and a safe place for people to talk about what they might be struggling with or even celebrating and hopefully gain support from others. I encourage you all to join me on this little quest in focusing on what is most important about life. For me those things are focusing on my family and being there for my friends when they need me. It means showing a stranger kindness because you never know what they might be going through and maybe even going a little bit out of my way to make someone smile just once in a day.
Please share with me what you want to focus on? What is important to you? I would love to hear feedback. Thanks for reading!